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Monday, November 12, 2012

The Lonely Tears

As night arrive the sky starts to dark and the breeze starts to blow. I’m walking down the street with this chill breeze trying to find you in the midst of the darkness. Desperately looking at the lights hoping there’s an answer to this wander. I guess tonight is not the night? I trace back my steps with an empty face.

Soft slow ballad music starts to play as I write in my diary. Wanted that movie like romance, I’m hoping and praying that kind of hero exist in my world. Questions that never been answer or confusion that has never been solve left in me again and it leads me into silence.

Knowing what kind of man or what type of relationship that I want, doesn’t do any favor to me. Looking up at the sky, wanting answers but it never reach to me. Love is not complete if you get it too easy but yet how am I suppose to experience this if to fall in love is hard.

Putting my hands on my heart and ask why am I too afraid to fall in love? Why didn’t I open it and try to receive some? Yet, silence appears. Again, I absorbed in the soft ballad music. The lyrics drove me away from my own world. Tears gather and slowly falls without a sound.

It’s too hard for me to bear that you are with someone else. Even though you were probably with her but since I met you, and possibly before maybe you’ll break up with her. 
I painfully pray for this. Without a hint of pain or suffering, I hate that you look so happy.
Can’t you love me? Can’t you understand my heart a little? Can’t you break up with her? Can’t I take her place?
Or you could go on loving her and live while being next to me. Or you could pretend that I am her.
As long as you are with me by my side.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Clothes design by me ..::LAYNA KIM::..

I love clothes! who doesn't right? High heels and stiletto is my favorite but my size limits is all.

I'm big in terms of body and feets so its quite hard for me to buy clothes that i like or want.
T-shirt is ok but clothes like casual or dinner or even clubbing is never gonna be okay.

Well, I started to create/design clothes because of my participation is the Korean Wave contest few years back. They judges said that if we are able to enter finals we can't wear like t-shirts and jackets. We need to wear like how the k-pop artist wear it. So that's how my journey to become a fashion lover started. I went to Jalan Kenanga way back before Kenanga Mall open. It used to be a row of shops for buying in bulk. I look around trying to find some ideas for the clothes and I really thank god for giving me a mom who knows how to sew. So yes, my mom sew most of my clothes for the competition and events.



The small purple jacket or bolero its name was design by me but the shirt was bought in Jalan Kenanga. It really send out the message "BE YOUR OWN AWESOME".

Below is the picture during Korean Wave Contest where we wore that clothes.




What do you think about it? My first time..hehehe..

Next is Kpop Festival organize by Korean Society in Malaysia. We danced to Soom (Beast) therefore our shirts kena ade unsur unsur ganas sikit.hehehehe! I went to GM in KL (Yesteryears, GM only got one branch that is in KL) we scroll around the floors and search around for material. Found some metal look like and chains so I asked my mom whether can we sew this on clothes? (of course I need to ask her because she gonna sew it for us hehehe)Obviously the answer is yes.






 As you can see in the picture above, how the rest of my team members clothes are. I'm satisfied that we able to match our costume =)

My favorite of all the red jacket or I call it Monalisa jacket. I design this jacket for performance at Hallyu festival,Taylors College. We danced to Block B - Just Stop and Mblaq - Monalisa. The jacket to match up with G.O in Monalisa.




Start with this jacket, I started to ask my mom to sew me another onr. hehehehe!
While browsing for the red fabric, I found just the perfect fabric that I can use. And yeah! I did wore it to club!




My Step outfit is really step out! I didn't took any full whole body picture but I did took a group of us. You can see the rest of my members clothes even the guy too. You can check out in the facebook or the video below.






ROLY POLY!!! To be frank I hate this style so much because I need to be all cute and sweet. 70's fabric is not easy to find. So what do you think?




Lastly, I design my sisters (twin) prom dress. What do you think? Will you wear it? p/s: the make up was done by me.




That's all... Currently, I still have a few fabrics that I ask my mom to sew dresses and jacket. Maybe will post it once all of it complete. Next post maybe about my makeup style. 101 makeup tips from me? I'm not an expert I just learn by myself and keep on trying to search for the best makeup style for me.