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Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Preparing for another 16 days

16 days. I have 16 days to spent time with him. Will I be able to let him go?

Everyday, every day we meet and spend time together. At first, he was supposed to leave in January but maybe Angel of Love is on our side, the training has been postponed in March.

I know him for 2 weeks before we start couple. Trying out just for fun end up we take it serious. Thanks to the postponed, I got to know him a little..no wait.. a lot better actually. Alhamdulillah, our chemistry is good.

In this almost 3 months relationship, I already fall in love with him deeply. He really open my heart to get married with his plans and what he wants us to be like. So that's when I decided to accept his plans. I still remember he used to say if I can wait for him till he turns 30. Then later, it change to 27 and this time 25. I decided to give a 3 years time frame for me to save up money and for him to built up his career & financial.

Plus Angel of Love is on our side again because his training ends in early that the usual. This is the first time I felt everything went smoothly. I've met his family on the way to Raub and yet his mother already announce to everyone about daughter-in-law. I'm glad that their family accept the fact that I'm older that him (more than 5 years) and his father encourage him to married first. He said his mother been telling people about me. I take it as a blessing to our relationship. I know my side has no problem.

So I have 16 days left to spend time with him. Thankfully that I didn't have to send him at the camp base. It will be disaster I think. Flood, tsunami, storm or all the hazardous will be arrive at the same time. hahahaaa..

I do wonder how will I be in 6 months? How am I? What will I do? Time will answer it all.

XOXO,
Layna.


Tuesday, February 16, 2016

2016 brings new smile


                                    

2016!!!!!

Another year has passed and 2015 didn't received anything new, Anyway, life goes on and here I am. This year I start my year with a big fat smile. Who gonna thought that love find it ways through me. 
I never thought I will fall in love again. Because the truth was I lost my faith and I felt tired of it. End up pushing every little chances away. But him? He came without even me knowing. He was just an attraction for my boring life. 


I first met him when I accompanied my sister. Second was on my eldest sister birthday party at karaoke. After the party, he gave me a ride to the venue for supper. That place where all of this started. With just a simple snobbish sentence me and him are side by side. We had nothing much in common and we lovingly joking a lot. Showing who's better at flirting and cheesy words. Then look now! We date for real.

This time it's different. I braze myself and confess. Asking our real feelings and status. I can say changes in my attitude a lot and taking things a different way. Maybe we compliment each other? who knows right?

Every happiness must have some torn along the way. I never quarrel with him or anything it's just that people surrounding us. I guess that is what I have to deal for if I want him right?

Anyway I hope 2016 is a new journey for me and maybe lead to a different destination too. As he said hoping me to to be his last and till forever, I secretly hope that too. I'm taking it seriously this relationship. No more flirting others for me. I'm praying that he is the one and will be my last one too.

A letter to me:-

Dear Layna,

You turn 29th now. You even find a new love in the very beginning of the year. It's rare. Remember that! Remember how your heart slowly opens and accept the love. Remember how your heart melt the way he treats you. Remember how your love blooms so fast. Don't mess up this time. Don't let go even if you have too. Chin up and suck it up! You have to be strong. Go through any hardship as a mature thinker. Don't ever fall into satan trap of emotions. Close your eyes, remember the love that you built and remind yourself to be happy is not easy. Take care of your health. Love yourself.

                                                                                                    Love, Layna.